Conscious Love a divine godly relationship…

Believe it or not it is right inside of you now. It always has been, is and forever will be. You just may not be awaken or conscious to it fully. It has been very well described that 'God is love' at its highest level of vibration and life is living that love. So all we need do is live love and we will be living life at its highest vibrational level. We will be our inner soul's God, manifested. If you are skeptical, then contemplate the following:

For x number of years you have lived the way you have, struggled the way you have and coped with the way you have. You have chosen, consciously or not to be exactly where you are. Thank yourself for you. You are O.K. in the eyes of your supreme being. You are on your path to enlightenment, when you do not forget your soul. Given that you are not seeking the Holy Grail, which is already in you and not yet awake, try vibrating at a higher level than you have. As everything we know (and don't know) is energy, it vibrates. Even egos vibrate, usually faster than our soul for they do not think per se, they just re-act, based upon some pre-conditioned programmed behavior pattern that we made over a given time line. Just remember that just because you may not believe it, it does not mean that it is not true. Consciousness has different levels and degrees.

So try vibrating. At a faster rate than you have been doing up till now and see what happens. Be conscious of God our Creator and all that has been done for us. Do not get hooked on semantics. Just try and be conscious of the vibrating. Then the lights will start to go on and while bickering of the egos may start from time to time, do not stop. Just allow yourself the joy of flowing with the universe instead of against it. Allow yourself to be part of the universe and it will allow you to be a director of it sometimes (known as synchronicity) and thus do the will of universal karmic harmony for that is within your reach, if you choose it to be so, so will it be.

As you vibrate you will raise your conscious and thus be more aware of all that you do and that you should do. You will have a closer connection with your loved ones and that itself will help you develop that deep inner part of you which is unconditional love and therefore universal God.

Love is what it is all about. Don’t ever kid yourself or let someone try to tell you otherwise. The love we are talking of is of course, unconditional in all aspects and most of all it is conscious. For how can we really love if we are not really conscious? Try by asking your spouse, friend and children what love is and you will get as many answers as there are their numerous matrix of egos. For most of us are unconscious to ourselves and thus unconscious to the other. Unconscious in the sense that we do not really know what makes them tick, only what egos we can please with this and that, or which ones we can agitate with that and this, but not as far as love goes. Pure love that is and always will be truthful and divine. They will talk of what the TV taught them or what they saw in a movie. They may talk of the spiritual side or part, but look a little confused about this. All of these answers are pre-packaged by the ego, from growing up with a conditioned cause/effect, action/reaction or stimulus/response. Where is the divinity that it really is? All the great sages, saints, teachers throughout the ages tried to teach us of love, of God, which is what love really is. For in God/love contains the totality of consciousness and life itself without the baggage of the ego weighting it down.

So as you become enlightened/conscious, your virtues transform your egoic responses into a new experience that is quite otherworldly. It becomes what is called transcendental, that is to say it transcends the ego and attains the purity of the soul in its externalization. Love to most people is what mom or dad or other adults did to us. Thus, with their pre-conditioned responses or with their own egoic situations problems etc; they taught us only what they knew and nothing more and then it was up to each of us to find the truth of love, the true meaning and feelings of love. The divinity of it and thus, yes finding God.

To many, love is what is said or felt during the physical ‘love act’ or sex. In many write-ups today we are starting to realize that in most cases the act of ‘making love’ is actually just having sex, like rutting. So we need to revisit our inner mindset and see if we cannot rectify this misunderstanding. Love has been, is and always will be the answer to everything that ails the human soul or spirit or psyche. Conscious love, without putting conditions on it like, 'if you do this or that I will love you', or worst, 'if you don’t do this or that I will not love you', which is all pure egoic garbage. Love is what made us and what propels us forward. God our creator. Love is the energy of the cosmos. Love is divine, as it is the greatest manifestation of the divine. In fact Love is what we are meant to be, God energy itself, living life as the love life for all that it can be. It is up to each and every one of us to maximize this process. It is our only real 'raison d’etre'.

Love is not sexual, as that is for procreation of the animal kingdom. Love is physical when in the greatest energy field and when with the greatest reverence and the greatest respect for each other. In other words if you and your mate profoundly find the divine depth in each other then you will have found true pure love and you will in fact start the dance of the universe. Think about it for a while. Why does having sex only give limited pleasure for a limited time and usually to only one of the two? Why does it leave you tired to want to sleep and why does it make you a little wobbly or unbalanced after or the next day. Your energy was zapped in the mating ritual of rutting. Why? Sexual energy is the energy that makes us live and grow. It also makes weak people strong and strong people weak. For it is used incorrectly. People usually have some inner ulterior motive for having sex other than for being love itself, and thus call it love to camouflage the truth. Thus we always need to make sure that we are communicating with each other, truthfully.

If you where to approach it as really being ‘making conscious pure love’ with God beside you all the way, (remember God is in you and has plans to help you be the best you can be for yourself, for God and your mate and all others) then there would be no sense of an act but of communicating with the divine, in you and in your mate. Sort of like a God making conscious love with a Goddess. Makes you wonder what you have been doing all along. Yet the worst part is that you then really realize what you have been missing, ugh. Thank God, thank you, that you have now awoken to what is really going on inside and what it will bring about is nothing less than miracles. It is said in the holy writings that when two people are of a like mind, with a common goal, having included God in their quest, then the most favorable outcome is assured. For it is the unison of the two energies, the duality of God that is at work, and with this, miracles do happen. Try it and see. With this you will find, improved relationships (you really need that first to get somewhere in trying this all out) improved health, as you will not be trying to steal or lose energy but work with it, and most of all you will be starting to be all that you can be for yourself, God and all others.

So don’t let them say what is love, or did you make love, or I love you, say it always as ‘conscious love, profound, divine, Godly, unconditional as if the cosmos is speaking’. Because in reality it is as you are the creator of your part of the cosmos. So make conscious love, not, 'have sex'.

While we were told that the mythological Gods where male and female, the happiest ones where those who where making conscious love, the ones having sex where always having problems and a lot sadder, even if seemingly more powerful. Things are not always as the appear to be…

Control

In neuro linguistic usage, to us it reads as the CON of a TROL. You know those bad ugly guys from the fairy tales that would trip up and frighten the travelers, especially young innocent girls. As for the con, well let’s face it, it really is because it is not the truth and that is how we are fooled into it.

It has been the most problematic word and action since the beginning of time. Who controls who or who controls what? And yet when we really dig into it, we find that it is not our soul or the other person’s soul, but in fact just our little (or big) egos/sins looking for attention. We all need control in many ways, from controlling bodily movements to thoughts that allow us to do our job. There are good uses, but the complication arises when we use it in communication with other people. Try a little test by using your soul to communicate with someone that seldom does. See how they react to your action while you continue to act from your soul and not react from your egos. At some point you will get into a discussion or worst an argument and then who wins. The one with the stronger ego usually wins, unless you allow your soul to transcend the situation and step back and out of it.

We have seen over time how men control their environment and put women below them. We have seen men do the same with their families and anybody else they can, control. Men often say it is just survival of the fittest, and therefore accept that they are just like the animal kingdom. We have seen how women, controlled by men (starting with a father and maybe a brother and ending up with the mate) control their own children and not in a good way. This is the pecking order, whereby the one at the top dumps on the next one and they dump on the next and so on. Women often do this out of frustration as their mate controls them as their parents did and they have no sense of control over another and thus feel they have no control over themselves.

Control has shown itself time and time again to be tied into a lack of a mission in life. A lack of a fixed purpose and understanding of the answers, in whole or in part to, ‘Where are we from? What are we doing here? Where are we going?’ When we are focused on a mission, we know where it is we are headed and have a good understanding on how to get there. Without this we are just drifting along the journey of life living whatever people and situations have to through at us, doing it all as a reaction from our egoic mind. Thus, others who are more fixed in what they want to do can easily sway us, and we think to ourselves, ‘let me follow that person it looks interesting’. In doing so we will at some point give ourselves up to them and let them lead. As they lead they can easily have power over us and thus do end up controlling us. With our own vision of our own mission, we will be less likely to get side tracked by anyone or thing that will control us and at the same time because we are in fact focused, conscious of ourselves, it is highly unlikely that we will seek to control another for we have our peace of mind of what to do and our work cut up for ourselves. We do not need to control someone else to do it.

Without our own mission and the mini goals that go with it, we feel lost and drifting aimlessly in the sea of life with no direction, without a wheel to steer our boat. Literally out of control. So our egos set in motion to seek control of a situation in whatever manner possible, or even give it over to someone else. This then clicks on to the learned behavior patterns from the ego/sins of those that brought us up and that we just repeat. Repeat what? Control they had over us we continue to seek over others, just like the pecking order. The ego reasons subconsciously that if we cannot control ourselves, maybe and for sure like others did to us, we can do to others. So as we allowed others to do unto us, willingly or not, we seek to do unto others to give ourselves the satisfaction of controlling something or someone else. Usually that control means controlling someone else’s egos, which in life today is usually not to hard given that we are living 80% ego and maybe 20% soul. This does lead to problems of all kinds and strife of all kinds and yes it does lead to fighting and wars. The fighting can be a simple argument and the war can be simply between mates or friends, it does not have to mean world wars etc. yet it all does lead to that one way or another.

Control actually comes from our cosmic inner process. We have egos/sins within that drive us to do certain things. This drive can be viewed as our karmic penitence dealt out to us by another person as they have to put us through a test, and for ourselves it is a test to see if we can detach from the egoic strangle hold. Thus as much as we may think and believe that we are in control, the controlling is actually being done to us, by our egoic mind. That is where all of the sins reside. When our society created the phase ‘being of sound mind’ and used the so-called ‘normal’ person to make the average, they should have termed it ‘being of egoic mind’ as the egos/sins are the ones in control. So the only ones ‘being of sound mind’ are those that have worked on really understanding themselves and their egos and how they acquired them. They have been able to attain consciousness of themselves and of their egos/sins, and if not completely dissolved at least more than less, and totally under control of their soul. So we can see how the saying ‘Why are we here?, to raise our consciousness!’ rings true for all of us.

We actually give other people the control and thus the power over us. So when someone complains that so and so is controlling me; it can mean one of two things, that the other person was given permission (albeit unconscious) to control us, or that we are not in control of those things that we want to be and so strike out at the first target we can. Believe it or not it is usually a combination of both. For we usually give the control to the other hoping to gain something and then try to do the same thing with another which is just the pecking order of the egos. This works when everyone is in the same game and no one is conscious of who is doing what to whom, it just happens. But as we look at all of society around us we can see that with all the problems, disputes and unhappiness, there are more working with their egos than there are not. Thus if we could only tap into our understanding of our own egos, be conscious of them, then we could get out of this mess and at the same time, end the paying of karmic debt and penitence.

How can we really get away from the control of the tyrants (or whatever you want to call them) when they are all around us? First start by looking deep into yourself and finding out about your own issues of control. He may have had a tyrannical mother he copied from and she may have copied her dad’s. In any case you usually only need to look at your parents to start with, to see what you most likely have buried inside yourself.

The next part is that of your own spirituality. Your own God (not creator) that helps you every day get more and more connected to your soul and be all you can be. It is pure unconditional love and conscious truth. Remember you are not in a courtroom to beat out the other guy on legalities that do not require the truth at all costs; you are inside you and must give the complete conscious truth for your enlightenment. Otherwise why bother trying to figure it out when you are just going to end up lying to yourself. Lying is a sin so it is better not sin and just stay as my brother likes to say 'stupid'.

Given the fact, that all the great messiahs died one way or another for us to be forgiven of our sins, rest assured that as soon as you embrace the path, ask for forgiveness of your ‘stupidity’, you will start getting answers. It is a little bit of work and sometimes we cry over it all, but that is just one of the egos looking to take control or change our mind. The real crying is one of joy when we open up ourselves and start to see the real beauty that we have inside, warts and all. We are a manifestation of God and we can be a God (not a creator) if we so choose. Or, we can just let the control issue be a problem that we carry around just like a backpack, taking it out once in awhile, or a lot, to see what it looks like and how it feels and let it control us, because it does and not, we it. Only our soul can really control something of us for it is of God; our mind, our ego, our sins are just the penitence that we have to go through to see the real beauty and fuse with it. You are not your soul until your attain consciousness of 'It' and that means first knowing your egos/sins consciously and truthfully. As you are on the path, the journey of life, define a mission and see how much easier it is to live without the issue of control cramping your style. Ask God and JC for help, they are waiting 24/7 and the cost is free. For all the best things in life are for free, we have to pay for our egos/sins, and we know that they are not the best life has to offer.

Gnostic Movement

Copyright Samael Aun Weor

Ed.n. This section is for your 'enlightenment' on what 'Gnosticism' is all about.

Chapter III of the book "Esoteric Schools", 1st edition, January 1985, Barcelona, Spain.

The Gnostic Movement is the synthesis movement of the new Age of Aquarius.

The Seven Schools of Yoga are present in Gnosis, but in a synthetical and fully practical form.

There is Tantric Hatha Yoga in Maithuna (Sexual Magic). There is practical Raja Yoga in the work with the chakras; there is Gnana Yoga in the mental tasks and disciplines we have been cultivating in secret for millions of years. We have Bhakti Yoga in our prayers and rituals; Laya Yoga in meditation and breathing exercises; Samadhi (Oneness of mind) in our practical work with Maithuna and during deep meditation. We live the way of Karma Yoga in fair action, thought and feeling.

The secret science of the Sufis and dancing dervishes is present in Gnosticism, as well as the secret doctrines of Buddhism and Taoism. The Sacred Magic of the Nordics is also found here, as is the wisdom of Hermes, Buddha, Confucius, Mohammed, Quetzalcoatl, and so on. The Doctrine of Christ is Gnosis.

Jesus of Nazareth, is, in fact, the Synthetical Man. He was an Essenian who studied Hebrew knowledge; he had two rabbi masters during his childhood. Moreover, besides his profound knowledge of the Zohar, the Talmud and the Torah, he was an Egyptian Initiate, an Egyptian Mason, who studied in the Kefren pyramid. He is an Egyptian Hierophant, who also traveled to Chaldea, Persia, Europe, India and Tibet. These journeys of His were not pleasure tours, Jesus traveled for study purposes.

Secret Tibetan documents indicate that Jesus, the Great Gnostic Master, was in Lhasa, the Tibetan capital, and sacred seat of the Dalai Lama.

Jesus visited the sacred Jo Kang Cathedral in Tibet; he acquired magnificent knowledge in these countries and all those ancient Schools of Mysteries...

The Great Master handed us all that Yogic wisdom, all those Buddhist, Hermetic, Zoroastrian, Talmudic, Chaldean and Tibetan teachings in a condensed form, "digested" in His Gnosis.

Jesus did not institute the Roman Catholic Church; He established the Gnostic Church, the one that existed in the times of St. Augustine, to which belonged Geronimo, Empedocles, Saint Thomas, Marcio of Ponto, Clement of Alexandria, Tertulian, Saint Ambrose, Harpocrates and all those early priests of the Church, which, at that time, called itself the Gnostic-Catholic Church.

The Roman Catholic Church in its present form was not established by Jesus; it is a deviation or corruption; a branch detached from the Holy Gnosis; a corpse. The human race needs to return to the starting point; to return to the sacred Gnosis of Jesus the hierophant, to primitive Christianity, the Christianity of Gnosis.

Jesus Christ's teaching is the Doctrine of the Essenians, the Nazarenes, Peratisens or Perates, and so on. In the Doctrine of Jesus Christ there is essential and fundamental Yoga, Tibetan magic, Zen Buddhism, practical Buddhism, Hermetic science, and so on. In Gnosis, all ancient wisdom is fully assimilated, chewed and digested.

Jesus, the Divine Master, is the Instructor of the World. If we truly want inner Self-realization, we should study, practice, and live the path of the gnostic arhat.

The best statement of the Secret Doctrine is found in the Gnosis of Jesus Christ the Hierophant. Gnosis saves us work and study; if it weren't for the synthesis of the Christ, we would have to memorize millions of volumes and travel around the world in search of the Way.

Fortunately, however, One (Man), the Christ, has already done this; He studied in the Buddhist Jo Kang Cathedral, researching ancient Tibetan texts. Why would we need to undertake the same investigation? He has already done this and brought us the whole Yoga, the complete Secret Science under a synthetic form. What more do we want?

Our duty is to study Gnosis and to live it; this is important. That we are laughed at, attacked or slandered, what does it matter to [the] Science, or to us?

Be assured, dear reader, that the best of Yoga is in Gnosis. The best of Buddhism, of Egyptian Science, Zoroastrianism and Caldean teachings is found in Gnosis; so, what more do we want? What else are we looking for?

The Gnostic Movement is the revolutionary of the new Age of Aquarius. At present there are many reactionary, ill-timed, inconvenient individuals and many latecomers who call themselves "gnostics" and who excommunicate us because we teach the Great Arcanum, the Maithuna. They say we are involved in pansexual, sinful work. They do not want mankind to receive the key of inner Self-realization. The Secretary of the Gnostic Institutes has received letters from one of these pseudo-mystic, pseudo-gnostic individuals, who claims to practice Gnosis and Sexual Magic (Maithuna); yet he does not want this key to be delivered to the poor, sickened human race. He says people should be prepared and instructed before giving them Maithuna, etc. Nevertheless, this so-called leader contradicts himself denouncing the Gnostic Movement and the Great Arcanum to certain students, and accusing us of pornography.

Actually, this "leader" does not want other people to enter the Path of the Razor's Edge. These are the people who do not enter, and who will not allow others to enter. He knows the sexual secret, he knows Maithuna, but does not want others to know; he is committed to hiding the truth from the poor human race.

Quite frankly, we have decided to go into a battle without frontiers, a battle to the death in order to bring about the new Age of Aquarius. It makes no difference that we are criticized or betrayed. Gnosis should be delivered to the mankind whatever the consequences. Jesus taught Gnosis and we will deliver it to the human race, whatever the cost.

The Gnostic Movement presents its knowledge in a revolutionary way; it is one hundred percent revolutionary. The Gnostic Movement was formed in order to start a new era, directed by a revolutionary planet, Uranus, the planet of sexuality, of revolution in progress.

In this year of Aquarius, the Universal [Christian] Gnostic Movement must fight strongly the good battle for the new Age of Aquarius.

Each Gnostic Sanctuary should appoint a missionary, and all missionaries should commit themselves to a battle for the victory of Jesus, the Christ.

Each Gnostic Lumisial should undertake the most intense advertising for the Movement, involving leaflets, papers, invitations, lectures, books, communications via radio, TV and so on.

Whoever wants to become Christ-like should be willing to give until the last drop of blood for Christ and for the ailing human race.

The egotists, those who think only of themselves and their own progress, will never reach such a Christ-like state.

At present [N.T.: 1970], the Gnostic Movement has over four million followers throughout America. However, it needs to grow more, to become powerful, massive, and ready to transform the world for the new Age that has already come about.

Last year was terrible ... we were betrayed by a pretentious villain ... but we were victorious, we have won the battle. Now we are more powerful, stronger, more numerous; last year came to an end with complete success for the Gnostic Movement.

This year of Aquarius requires a battle to death against ignorance, fanaticism and error. It is necessary to involve ourselves intensely in the Great Work of the Father, and to bring thousands of people to our ranks. We need to strengthen the World Salvation Army.

Remember, Gnostic brothers and sisters, that the Gnosis of the Cosmic Christ synthesizes the practice of all Yogas, Lodges, orders, religions, schools, systems, and so on.

Our Great Master Jesus Christ studied this Yoga deeply, along with all of ancient wisdom. He immediately delivered his gnosticism to us - already digested, simplified to perfection and under a totally practical form.

There is Gnosticism in the Buddhist Doctrine, in Tibetan Tantric Buddhism, Japanese Zen Buddhism, Chinese Chan Buddhism, Sufism, in the dancing dervishes and in the wisdom of Egypt, Chaldea, Persia, and Pythagoras, in the Greeks, the Aztecs, the Mayans and the Incas.

Studying the Christian Gospels closely we will find Pythagorean Mathematics, the Chaldean and Babylonian parables and the formidable Buddhist ethics.

The system of teaching adopted by Jesus was that of the Essenes. Certainly, the Essenes were one hundred percent Gnostic in nature.

The Four Gospels are Gnostic, and cannot be understood without Maithuna (Sexual Magic). It is absurd to adulterate Gnosis with different teachings; the Christian Gospels forbid adultery. It is absurd to conceive Gnosis without Maithuna.

We may drink the wine of Gnosis (Divine Wisdom) in a Greek, Buddhist, Sufi, Aztec or Egyptian cup, but we should not adulterate this delicious wine with foreign doctrines.

The Gnostic Movement embodies the Practical Synthesis of Gnosis under a totally revolutionary form.

The Gnostic Movement corresponds to the zodiacal sign of Aquarius and is, thus, totally revolutionary.

Gnostic Lumisials should be esoteric academies and Temples of Solar Liturgy.

The Gnostic Rituals are really Solar Liturgy. Humans do not have, up to now, a Solar Body (Astral Body); this is a luxury for the very few. Presently, man, that is, the "intellectual animal", only possesses a Lunar Body (Molecular Body).

The intellectual animal is a slave to lunar influence. He carries the Moon in his Molecular, negative, ghost-like body. In fact, humans are presently a hybrid mix of plant and ghost.

What the intellectual animal carries within his Lunar Body is only the Legion of the Ego and the sleeping Buddhata.

The Gnostic Movement teaches Maithuna so that humans can fabricate the Solar Body. Man must break free from the Moon to be converted into a Solar Spirit.

The Gnostic Rituals identify us with the solar force. We need to fight the lunar force, to become really free. This is the aim of the Gnostic Movement.

The Moon is death, the Sun is abundant life. The Moon is materialism, drinking binges, banquets, lust, hate, greed, envy, vanity, laziness, disbelief, etc., etc.

The Sun is Fire, Wisdom, Love, Divine Spirit, Splendor, etc.

The Sun is the Cosmic Christ, the Word, the Great Word. The four Gnostic Gospels embody the Solar Drama, the Drama of the Christ.

We must live the Solar Drama; we need to become the center of this Cosmic Drama.

It doesn't matter if we are criticized, detested, hated for teaching Maithuna (Sexual Magic) for the sake of this poor, defeated, stranded human kind.

The degenerate infra-sexuals will never forgive us for advocating Supra-Sexuality.

It is truly painful to see these poor infra-sexuals in the Molecular Worlds after their death. Their lunar bodies turn them into lunar women who wander in the Molecular World like sleepwalkers, asleep, cold, unconscious.

What use would be to these poor infra-sexuals all their subjective practices? What use are to them all their Creeds, Systems, Orders, etc.? In vain will the infra-sexuals search for liberation while they despise sex and renounce Maithuna (Sexual Magic), abstaining from sex or abusing it, following the degenerate way of homosexuals, masturbators, etc.

In vain the sincerely mistaken will try to create the Solar Bodies practicing breathing exercises, Yoga without Maithuna, other exercises or vegetarian diets.

It is totally demonstrated that we were born from sex and that only through sex one can create.

In fact, only through sex we can engender the Solar Bodies. Only the wonderful force of the Third Logos can turn us into Solar Spirits.

We want to teach mankind the Solar Religion. We want to hand over to these lunar ghosts the Solar Doctrine of the Cosmic Christ, with the sole objective that man can Christify himself.

It is urgent that the Christ be born within the heart of Man. Each human being must be turned into a Solar Angel.

The Gnostic Movement has a titanic task in the Age of Aquarius, which we have just entered. We have the Sacred Mission of teaching this poor human race the Doctrine of the Solar Logos.

We should fight to the death to make the Gnostic Movement more and more powerful. This Movement must become Omnipotent for the sake of so many millions of humans who are on their way to the Second Death. We must be compassionate and hand over to Mankind the Solar Doctrine, whatever the cost.

Evil and Narcissism

What and how is the Evil in us and how is it transmitted from generation to generation…

In psychology we know that we all have egos. Some say good ones and others say bad ones. Thus the duality of whom we are and how we can be the duality that we are. You cannot know good if you think there is no evil for how can one be without the other. This is a paradox that just keeps cropping up and up. Just as we cannot understand hot if there is no cold, love if there is no hate, one is the opposite of the other. Thus we can find and understand evil once we know and understand God and not the other way around as most of society teaches us and focuses on the bad. Don’t do this don’t do that. How about, be divine, be Godly, be loving and thus you give fewer chances for the other side. Although by this alone, evil will not just go away, you will be able to see and feel love and then find courage. Courage is found in the Love that is conscious, truthful and unconditional.

One of the early Popes wrote out the seven deadly sins based upon biblical texts and life up to that time, what we do not know is why those ones and how come they are so exact, even today. Today we have come to understand that the sins are in fact externalization of the egos that sit in wait in our head to buy us and sometimes drive us crazy. Think about the way you re-act to any given situation and you will have found the effect of what a original egoic cause did to you. This is the law of cause and effect, which governs us weather we like it or not.

Ex. You are a child (just about all development of egos is in the early years up to say 8 years old) and you want to go out to play and your parents say no. You keep asking and the more you ask the louder the no gets, until they scream at you NO which puts fear into you. You start to cry and they get angry and you cry more and they get angrier. All of this being a cause and effect, action reaction process going on. Parental ego says no, your ego cries, their ego throws out fear to control you and the rest of your life when someone says NO in that same tone, you become fearful. Now take that example and use it with any of the sins or egos and you start to see that you developed a program that has stayed with you since childhood. It became your psychological song. So now run down the list of fears and see what you can remember from when they first hit you and who was doing it to you as that child. Was it that infamous, 'The other guy'. Why?

Because they learned the same pattern as you did from the adults in their life and can only teach you what they know and have no way of teaching you what they do not know. Later we say to ourselves that we will not be like our parents on this or that aspect, yet we really do become just like them unless we make a radical change or transformation. For the apple does not fall far from the tree. We think that all those things that we did 'covertly' from our children, (be it psychological or sexual in nature) were not picked up by them, but if we can envision our own childhood we will remember that we picked up on things that they (the caregiver parents) did not realize that we did. Just look around you and your friends that are in their 20-30-40s etc. and see if their parents are not like them in many ways, especially the egoic ones. For they learned erroneously from their parents and unless someone helped them change the pattern, it stayed put. Each ego needs to be fed so when we create a pattern inside ourselves it seeks to repeat and repeat itself (like in the movie 'Ground Hog Day') until we wake up to what is going on and become conscious to what is really controlling our re-actions, that is to say what is the effect from the cause. So we think that we are in control of things when in fact all we do is re-act as we where taught at an early age. Just maybe some evil things were coming towards us then and we didn't know it, heck, we still don't know it now. As the wise-ones say ‘We do not know that we do not know’ and they are not kidding.

Given these negative, these erroneously learned patterns, the bad egos; how can evil not be fed through all of this process. It is quite simple for evil to be and get fed, for all of us live with psychological injury(s) or prejudice(s) from a young age, and who is there to help us stop it. Yes all that is Godly and divine, but how are they really helping if we have lapses, do not see them enough or do not re-write the script in our head that keeps going around and around. If we do not actively work on acknowledging them daily, they are powerless, as we have kept them out. So without the divine in our minds constantly, we fall back to what we where doing before, feeding the ego. Sort of like it takes over by default when we are not vigilant, on guard, conscious of what we are doing or saying and why. If we do not consciously choose to change something, then it stays the same forever. Well almost forever, you see with our own divine inner compass we slowly begin to works things out to help ourselves even though we are not really conscious of it. That is Gods plan for us all. Then again, if we are innately feeding the ego, the bad, the evil in us, we don’t get a chance to live our divinity our Godliness. So why do we keep feeding it?

Narcissism is a funny word that seems to be so powerful and frightening, but not to those who suffer under it. For within it lays the evolutionary process of us all now living the evil that is around and controlling us. Those that suffer from it are completely oblivious to it and when you bring it up to them, that is where you really start to see how it works inside of them, denial becomes the first step, then when agitated a defensive egos kick in. But most of all we can see it from their greed, selfishness etc, all of the things that a conscious, sharing and unselfish person is not.

The dictionary describes narcissism as: self-love, exaggerated concern with the self; lack of concern for others; associated with genital excitation; one is willing to renounce other satisfactions if rewards of affection are promised; immature relationship to life; exaggerated underestimation of oneself; inadequacy and self-accusation; ego growing stronger attempts to obtain possession of the object it seeks and force itself; but mostly seen as having a number of the following traits:

Selfishness

Conditional Love

Visions of grandeur

Total control

Power over others

Lack of Empathy and Emotions

Aggressiveness

Vanity / Arrogance

Aberrant behaviors

(Better still; search the 'internet' for the explanations, definitions on what it is and how it is viewed psychologically).

Look back at all those not nice, not good things that happened in your life and try to see if one of the above explanations could describe what was happening. If you use more of your intuition and less of the mind to grasp it all then you should see the clear Godly truth shinning through. But if evil perpetuates itself, feeds itself, then how does it? You just saw how you where affected by some adult doing something to you at some point, then the natural conclusion is that of evil perpetuating itself. To test it just ask yourself 'Do you not remember any similar thing during your lifetime that fits into this, being done by you'? Look for the thing you hate most in others and you will find your own ego (bad sin) behind it all. If you turn it around, then evil becomes live and that is what we are suppose to strive to do. Yet we must dissolve the ego in order to really live or we stay frozen in the fear etc. and thus stop living, loving, expanding and knowing the gnosis of ourselves.

With this general understanding is that the ego picks up bad patterns, and without our divinity we fall into the cycle of reacting, to the causes we learned at a young age, and that our parents taught us just as they had learned at a young age. Unless we consciously want to change and work hard to change, change does not happen.

Ex.

As part of the baby-boom generation I can attest to the fact that we all wanted things to improve and wanted peace and love to be extolled from all around the world. But what happened and why? Enter the egos of narcissism. What most of us said was that we did not want to be like our parents and raping the world of its truth and beauty. But once we all got into playing unconsciously with the sexual energies (remember free love with every and any one) we froze our psyche at the second lowest vibration-al level. Then we went into the work/money force and really started to live or so we thought. But without our Godliness, without the divine intervention, without our souls consciousness we just ended up feeding our egos.

We learned that we needed to take care of ourselves and get the best of everything that we could even if we stepped on our brother/sister to do so. We did not feel over empathetic or sympathetic to them, to our planet and we repeated what our parents did to us with our own children.

Have you ever contemplate the fact that some people for various reasons should not have had children? I am sure that being honest with yourself you will see something narcissistic behind the various reasons. Honestly we did not feel nor live many virtues (opposite to sin) but loved living the ego/sins and what it could bring us. With the number of baby-boomers it was sure to be a mass perpetuation of evil. Even today with the many things that can be done, what is the most prevalent is that which feeds narcissistic tendencies. Just look around, and what do we see; the problems, power struggles over who will dominate whom. Knowledge is power and as gnosis is knowledge you can see that all things can be used for a dual purpose when you have that knowledge as you can control another or fix your own problems. But with all the selfishness and lack of empathy, where have the virtues of caring and sharing with tender love gone? Just look in the hospitals, old age homes and the like. We don’t have time nor want to care for the elders of our tribes. Let someone else do it and we will show up once in awhile to 'make it look good'.

It is conditional love for if you do this for me then I will do that for you. It is the song all egos sing when they find an ego-mate. Someone that each can share and fight for the control of the egos over, as in a marriage, as most marriages are not built on divine love, but on what is known as 'narcissistic sources of food supply'. That way you can have them feed your egos when you lack the nourishment your ego requires. Self-importance and grandeur go hand in hand so why should I do some lower level thing when I can buy/force (my food supply) do it. I am too important to stoop down to the level of the commoner. I am too special.

This is quite true as all egos / sins are quite special. Aberrant behavior is everywhere today as our Godliness has lost it’s footing as the seat of our soul. We have very little reverence for life and revere only what the dollar can buy us. The bumper sticker of the baby-boomers reads ‘It is not how you play the game, but how many toys you have when you die’. So who cares about whom? God who is love, who is life, does. If we are not living life as in live then we are in the opposite mode dying as in evil.

How did we get to this point of evil, narcissism and lack of love?

Well the main point seems to be, that we left God at the rest stop and kept on driving without his energy or even thoughts of God. While it is still and will always be in us we simply stopped contacting it and using it daily, each hour, each minute. We are not conscious. We are sleepwalking like 'Ground Hog Day' and don’t care to know that this is what we are doing. We are the living dead as talked of so often in the bible. We do not love ourselves in the divine sense but in the egoic one, which leads to too many people loving their 'self' too much and this is just feeding narcissism.

Go back to the time of J.C. and you will see an unfolding of it all. At that time he was extolling the truth of One God, One Law of Life - Love- unconditional, unselfish and universal in its divine dance as it was pure truthful and lack of ego. Then the bad guys got a hold of him and put him to death. Later we are told it was to forgive man’s sins in front of God, a kind of a mass absolution. So as we pray to him that the sins get wiped away. Which when taken textually and psychologically is true. However as the elders of the time saw a way to control the masses with yet another process, they went gusto on it. They managed to manipulate what he was saying into what they needed in order to have power over us. The did not want him really telling the truth to everyone out there. And, even to this day they do not like the writings of Nag Hammadi so they kept it all out of the bible(s). Thus we enter the age of organized religion for the power of the elders.

Their thinking went something like, we want to control the masses and this new religion, which with a built in martyr it can do it for us. They needed to put something between the masses and God so they could get a cut and ultimate control over us. Like going to a carnival and you have to pay to see what is inside.

Even today you have to pay but they have hid the price in so many ways. Thus creating organized religion with its’ hierarchy did the trick. So far so good as a process of evil did not play that great a role. Just narcissistic people wanting control, power, and the money it could bring, without empathy for the masses. So not evil in itself, as they were doing it for the good of everyone, yet with their own selfish desires attached to it all.

This is one of the things that Jesus talked a lot about how the elders would be the power over us. The next stage we see is the good people of the cloth (monks missionaries nuns) doing good for all people while the power monger or narcissistic ones (the hierarchy) tightened the controls and the laws for the masses to abide by. Laws on top of laws on top of laws, which Jesus was so against within spirituality. Ever wonder why the legal system does not say the 'Truth at all Costs' but instead uses the 'Best Defense' you can afford. Its’ base is right here.

Hierarchy control, which maybe an important process for many things, but not where God is concerned. There is no one that can come between the Boss and you. Your soul knows that and your soul knows good from evil when it is conscious of the truth. But, try telling that to someone who is narcissistic and they will tell you that you are nuts. Of course they have to say that in order to protect there nourishment for the narcissistic ego, otherwise they get mad and some do go nuts. Control freaks need control and power over others. They need that to steal the energy of the others in order to use it against the other and anyone else they deem necessary, yet defending as they are oblivious as they do not know who they really are.

In the next wave of narcissism came the present government system, with all their multitude of levels, laws, waste and lack of moral empathy for us human beings. They do a somewhat good job for the masses of people who are unconscious and cannot follow the inner workings of themselves let alone a hierarchy system. Just read the papers, watch the news, and follow the mass of TV programs, all tailor made to keep up asleep. For they that run the system knowing what they know and acting as they do, weather it is a dictatorial regime or a so-called democratic society, are all made up of people with narcissistic traits.

This is professionals and anyone with a financial interest in business that can directly or indirectly profit from what is happening. So at this point we see that it is not the money that is the problem but the people using it. Like they say, guns do not shoot people, people shoot people. Money does not feed the ego, people and what they do, think of, feeds the egos.

So now we are stuck with a narcissistic control system all around us, from the organized religions, to governments, schools, work life and then finally to our own families. For how can a person be narcissistic if not learned from the family unit, the parent(s) and supported by the cast of sleep walking people who cannot standup for themselves nor have the courage to give it all over to God? (Not the evangelist or gurus, but the Boss him/herself/Love, when they do not yet love themselves).

The lack of love for themselves comes from all the egos / sins that where injected into them as a child and as they grew up. They did not develop a healthy 'self-esteem', yet knew people who have a narcissistic one that controls theirs’. They did not develop a healthy solid reverence for God but knew someone that could help them find God, connect to God, for a price. They did not have the chance to have real divine unselfish love, Godly in every way but they knew someone that could make them believe that they are it, if they follow their ways, do their bidding, heed their call. The perplexing problem of this for all of us is, why getting older did we not grow, expand and fix the problems in us? Easily understood when we know that a narcissistic system needs its narcissistic nourishment from those it can control and keep as its’ submissive energy as feed and this is done in so many ways that it takes a psychologist to weed it all out. So become your own psychologist and start weeding, don’t be afraid to ask for qualified help when you need it. Your soul is counting on it.

It is a man’s world so no wonder 80% of it is narcissistic.

Ever wonder what it would be like if only 20% where. No wars to fight over who controls who, no weapons to kill who is killing whom, crime down to a minimum with the truth as the paramount process, and of course minimal sexual, physical, and verbal abuse. Sounds like a lot less narcissistic stuff going on does it not. Why? Because, of the need of feeding the ego of narcissism, they control us and they order us as to what or what not to do.

They give us the news, give us the money issues and most abhorrent of all, they give us sex and its' abuses, thus not erotica of some lost thought of poetry, but pornography. Not nudie pictures but sleazy stuff, from child to snuff. Free speech for the un-Godly as they are at the center of everything and the Boss is not real to them. If God was real to them then they would be looking for help to unload their problems of control, aggression and lack of empathy for their fellow human beings.

A bad soul is what it comes down to, lack of guilt for what they do and lack of consciousness with lack of aspirations to be conscious. To say that it is because of power is an understatement, they really think that they are God and don't have room for another one.

So they are evil and they may or may not know this, but being narcissistic and getting fed is all that counts for them. How? The use of sexual energy by man up to now; women are getting into the swing of it but up to now it seems that they are mostly just emulating men, for the power. What happened to empowerment? Insecurity. It still is a man’s world and he brings her false security, which she will sell herself for as she 'thinks' (with her egoic mind) that she has no other choice. We all have free will and do as we want, so when we are asked why we choose the bad over the good, we can defend ourselves with free will. Maybe our karma will not be so tough the next time around!

Most people are aware that matter/energy (as in sexual) cannot be created nor destroyed only transformed. With this transformation process we can use it for whatever we focus ourselves on from helping a person to being a dictator. In the days before sexual differences, men and women did all things together, hunted, fought and made a home. Once man realized that it took a male animal to make the baby animals he gained knowledge and then power over the women. While societies that revered mother earth where not narcissistic, those that did not developed it and helped to perpetuate evil, as we know it today.

Even with all the messiahs, even with all the Saints, male or female, we still have not learned to be ego-less, to be without the narcissistic process of power over the other, to sense the guilt when we do something bad, to seek forgiveness for our trespasses and in general, listen to and try to emulate the energy of those who tried to teach us. So evil survives and thrives.

Man developed a strong attraction to sex as the power base for his feeling good, feeling strong and invincible. Yet he did not transmute that energy to a higher level of vibration within himself, for an awakening, it was just for a power over the others. The Tibetans taught sacred divine Tantric Yoga Sex and man just found a way to exploit it to further his own narcissistic feedings. Buddha taught transmutation of sexual energies, and the gurus knew how to capitalize on it, by setting up Tantric brothels. J.C. taught loving feelings and caring which women wanted and man learned how to use as abuse over her. All so that he could feed his narcissistic egos. He was the center of the universe and no one was going to displace him from it. Live free or die, is his battle cry, which is o.k. if it is live free of egos and getting better, or give up and throw in the towel. Better a dead narcissus ego than a live one. So what happened and how can we fix it?

Women as receptive and sensual with Man as sexual, aggressive, and narcissistic.

Maybe it should be something like the female side good and male side evil, or maybe it should be the female side feeding and the male side eating, for that is about the reality of how things are right now in the world. Why?

Man became to realize that he wanted all of the sexual energy he could get. When his wife could not feed him the way he wanted her to he found a lover, then another, then he went younger as they where easier to manipulate, as he got older and wiser. Then he found out, that it is the really young ones, teens, totally innocent of all contaminations of life that he wanted, to take her energy, be the first one to feed off of her innocence. He was not against doing the same with young boys who knew not of sexuality, as they nourished him the same way. Besides the older ones were wiser and aware of his tricks. And all of those that he contaminated with his ways taught their own children that it was acceptable, the way things are done. Remember you cannot teach what you do not know nor can you learn what you will not accept after any abuse/trauma. Thus the ego becomes evil for it has now been tainted and traumatized. With more than 50% of North American children abused in some form or another, how could it be otherwise? You learn and you repeat unless you change your way of thinking.

Women have always been the sexual energy force that the men went after. Their innocence was pure untainted sexual energy that was actually looking for sensuality. They gave their sexuality to the man in exchange for his sensuality. But being the center of his universe as a narcissus he kept it all for himself and just kept on feeding. She was insecure as society showed him to be the provider and she the nurturer, so she could not stop feeding him what he wanted for himself and not for the good of the whole, just for his selfishness. If she changes something in the mix, then he will look elsewhere to be fed or feed on her by aggression. Thus the abuse we see all around us. So she learned that the sensuality she sought was the sexuality he wanted.

Her insecurity created by the man’s world is assuredly going to keep her there unless she changes her way of thinking and mostly, unless she re-connects to the divine in herself. When we are conscious we recognize what is good and what is bad. That is the starting point for changes deep within ourselves. His aggressiveness needs to be put through the psychotherapy process in order to be corrected and she needs to feel secure of herself and what she can do with divine help.

So, yes, evil exists, it is all around us every day and unless we choose to change our way of thinking with divine guidance and the Love of God, which is life, it will not dissipate. Only your divine soul can make it happen, but with it being bottled up by the egos / sins of the mind, what chance does it have, so please free your soul from the grips of the ego. Yes, you are God and with all of that which is around us, make up the universal consciousness that we all look for outside of ourselves, yet it is inside. When they said 'know yourself and you will know God', they really meant it literally. For without your psychological process how can you attain your Godliness and thus free your soul from the narcissistic process that seems to have the hold on everyone and everything. Start by repeating in the mirror each morning the beautiful words from India “Namaste” “Namaste” “Namaste”. God will bless you; that you can count on.

Narcissism and its’ evolution via the family

Why does self-centeredness still propagate itself today? How is it done? How is it possible in a so-called evolved mankind? And most of all, how do we make it right?

When we were the cave man our brains, functioning and values were no better than that of the animal kingdom, survival of the fittest. As we evolved we shared most things with those around us and the women partook in all things with the men, until 'husbandry' (mating of domesticated animals), as we did not understand how copulation worked. But, once man figured out that it took the male to impregnate the female, he just took over all the control he could muster and placed the women in the receiving role, and thus the main nurturer of offspring. He went hunting to feed the family with food other than what the farm animals provided or what the female grew in the garden.

With the onset of more inventions to help out the work, man started to have more 'thinking time' and started to be his own philosopher. As he was right with the breeding of farm animals it stood to reason that he was right in thought. He was stronger than she as she become more and more domesticated and stayed with the children. His ideas of himself grew more and more egoic, I am strong, I am smart, I am right. He started to do more and more things that were pleasing to him and for his own interests, like sex of course. God was some abstract thing that even today most people believe is outside of them and only revered at the religious mass. He had it all worked out and no one could tell him otherwise. Even if they did, when he got home he was still controlling that environment. So at work and play if someone was stronger than he or controlled him, he would get revenge at home.

She was dumped with all the child rearing work and house stuff so when he came home she did not have the energy to debate with him and if she put up a fuss he would take it out on her or the children. Thus she would go into a defensive mode to protect the children. Sort of like the male animals that try to eat the young so the female protects them. From this he would develop and strengthen his self-centeredness that would be part and parcel of most families, even today.

Narcissism is what it is called and it really is part of our early childhood growth process from a psychological point of view. We need to overcome this stage and move on and grow into sharing for all, knowing that we are not the omni potent one, but that God is. Unfortunately, with just over half of mankind believing in God and a lot of this is in some mixed up way (just in case), we are on a clear descent to nowhere. The road to hell is paved with good intentions, meaning that we think with our egoic mind that we are right and therefore do not look for God, saying that he is all around us and will take care of us, saying see I am right and if there was a God why does he let this or that happen, it does not make sense.

Of course it does when we know God as total unconditional truthful conscious love. We managed to figure out 'husbandry' so we should be able to see and be with that one thing that is everywhere. Yet we are still narcissist and thus negating God and the real energy, the real Power.

Man likes to think that the power is of his doing and under his control or at least he keeps working to control it. Yet how can a egoic mind living its' own process of sins and the wheel of Samsura be 'Power'. It may end up being in control over others, over this and that, yet it is not even in real control over the person's own being as the egos/sins have that one worked out, locked in place and playing its' game. Fate has the real control and we just refuse to understand it. It is part of our lives, just as God is and we just insist on ignoring it all.

So man goes and has a family, then being the head of the house etc. controls his family to the nth degree, from where they live (with minimal justified reasons) to what they will think and say. Just as he went out to find food for them before, he has now setup a way to have his own narcissist food supply at his fingertips. While he works in a more and more competitive world, he smiles, tows the line and fits into where the stronger one has control over him. He then goes home and repeats the same actions done to him, to the family. So as he is controlled by a self-centered boss he controls the family. He is the boss and everyone must do his deeds and beckoning. By injecting his way onto his mate, she has taken on the attitude that he is somehow, somewhat, better, stronger and to be accommodated, even if it is just to protect the children from his ranting etc. He controls her and thus the children.

As the children grow, and have been learning by copying those nurturing them, they become just like dad and mom. When they try to think for themselves and be all that their little hearts and souls are trying to be, they are quickly put in their place, 'children are to be seen not heard etc'. As their own psychological growth via nurturing is being distorted and not flowed through properly, they end up completely controlled by the parents. Should they be insubordinate then things like 'God will punish you for that' (thus making God a wrathful one and not Love), 'good children don't do that' (guilt), and 'what would the neighbors say' (guilty-fear) will be thrown at them to bring them under control. Added onto these fear statements is any other manner that the parental ego can come up with.

The parents egos, remember, were built based upon what their own parents did to them. The children go through 'abuses', 'traumas' without ever knowing it (although sometimes at mid-life they have crisis over it all) and with no one around to guide them, to nurture them, they stagnate in their psychological growth and the ego takes over in a form of survival in a hostile world. The ego seeks control in the chaos and to make sense of things by controlling. When God has been well extolled in the family as the total unconditional conscious love It is, then these problems are not seen, at least to a much less degree.

So Dad has a full control over the family with his various egos, usually with anger the strongest and Mom has it (in the pecking order) with fear and guilt of this and that. As Dad usually has a lot of desires of this and that; (for the family he says with it being actually for his own narcissist needs, as the family needs God and he is not extolling it daily or in a way to propagate unconditional conscious love, besides he usually believes he is God or a close copy and given God is not here in body he will do the job) he instills the ego/sin of desire into the family and controls it that way. They need him to get what they want, they depend on him for all things, they are not taught to hunt for themselves but to do his bidding so he can get what he wants and continuously have control over them, even into adulthood.

Problems arise at mid-life for the children when they start to realize that they are not happy and cannot figure out what is wrong, as Dad the copy of God here and now cannot be wrong, for if he is, then the morals, beliefs etc taught by him are wrong. The super-ego will not allow that to happen, unless there is something to replace it. If they are taught enough to make most of their own decisions then they would have taken the good stuff and let go of the bad, unfortunately between Dad/Mom and the society/culture they were told the parents know best.

Mom has been working with guilt on the children and if not guilt then fear with 'wait until your father gets home'. She has been protecting the children from the Dad until the children sort of rebel against her and as she loses control over them, and as she never had control over the Dad (unless she had learned to manipulate with the withholding of sex) she seeks her manner of getting it back. So as her mom taught her and she has seen with others, out comes the guilt. Using societies morals and whatever she can think of she does against her own offspring, what was done against her, who then become accommodating to her, not wanting to hurt her feelings etc. and thus subservient to others, via guilt and when needed fear, just like Dad's anger. There is also a myriad of other 'symptoms' that mom uses to control the offspring or any other children that may fall under her influence, symptoms that she created in herself from her own egos.

So the emotion-less Dad (towards the soul full needs of the children and mate) has his supply of narcissist reverence towards him and he uses all manners of reward for their paying him homage (actually for putting up with his ways, but this is unconscious as is most of the stuff) from praises of this and that, after yelling at them, to this most widely one used by us North Americans, money. Money was what he was after in order to get the gratification he wanted (feed his narcissist wants) and giving it at times like this, the children appease themselves with something different and do not think about what precipitated all of this. He buys their loyalty and they having been given money, even after something so called bad that they did, are reinforced to pleasing their own egos and forgiving anything Dad did. Mom does the same thing of course, but usually it is with other than a monetary exchange, it could be allowing this or that to be done. So now we equate money to control over the other by appeasing their egos.

With all this stuff going on from the self-centeredness of Dad, Mom and children, who has time for God? Besides where is God? Oh well, when he comes we will pay attention at that point. After all we are good people, doing good things and not hurting anyone.

Yet, when we look at the family unit of this narcissus we see that they will in turn go out and have their own offspring and thus raise them in the same manner. They lacked proper nurturing, so will their children. They lacked unconditional conscious love just as their children will. We cannot give to our children that which we did not receive but we can give them whatever we did receive, no matter where it came from. So if our parent's egos/sins are transferred to us, then we will transfer them to ours. If we where shown narcissism and control, then we will transfer it to our children. All of this is fact, unless a miracle happens, and they do happen, but in the meantime narcissism just keeps growing and getting worst.

If we can see that something is wrong between how we were indoctrinated and how God that totally unconditionally conscious loving energy works, then we have a chance to rise above the present chaos of our egos and start to work in earnest on what is happening. It maybe only at the mid-life crisis or when a friend keeps bugging us and reminding us that something is wrong with us and or the family. If that friend really loves us just as the Love of God would be here and now, and if we have not expelled that person from our lives as they affected our own narcissism, then with that loving feeling we have a chance to go inside and dig around.

Looking back over time we come to realize some of the danger signs that narcissism is at work:

Self-centeredness of the elder (even if masked by 'I am doing this for the family' which actually means that I am doing this to have control over my family for it is a dictatorship and not a democracy) is quite evident from the problems of society and the hierarchy process.

There were signs of grandiose self-importance commonly known a bragging and much exaggerated.

They are special and somehow unique, thus only understood by the same type which usually means the family, as they were trained to pay homage and outsiders were not and of course do not understand our special situation. Besides by keeping it all in the family, the secrets are safe. The joint encouragement means that any outside influence could never succeed in helping, and all outsiders are not welcomed unless they tow the line, give up their freedom and control to the head narcissist.

They required a lot of attention, admiration and often would pay to get it, one way or another. The head always had the sense that they were entitled to what they could get out of the family, after all it is their family and no one would tell them otherwise on any issue.

They often showed envy (especially in the money department) and would suggest that others were envious of them. This is often how an ego works, seeing in others what we really have inside of ourselves, thus in fact they were envious of others and what they had, thus the infamous 'keeping up with the Joneses'.

This would lead them all to showing degrees of haughtiness and arrogance.

Remember that by now the children are also demonstrating most of these signs, especially envy and arrogance. They took advantage of others, weather the family or outsiders it did not matter, as long as they could achieve their goal. Mostly, it was the family, as they were trained to perform. Just like circus animals.

Unfortunately, they also had a great lack and no adequate amount of empathy of others, being unable to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others. Their stuff was and still is always first. Who cares for the others as the others never cared for us? Sort of like the real McCoy family feuds going on all the time and unfortunately it really is, as money, prestige and pride are all at stake.

The quite sick aspect of it all is that they have few real friends that are not members of their own family and this is usually the biggest tell tale sign of all, for if we are always with our own family, then we cannot expand and take in new thoughts, new ideas from others. We live the same morals and beliefs all the time, right or wrong and we do not develop the discernment to fix this and make that better. We are not seeking enlightenment or consciousness, we are just sleep walking as we were taught as the circus animals that we have become, for a dollar we can jump through the hoop. If we are weekly being fed that same doctrine from within a family nucleus that is narcissist then we cannot change and grow. If we spend more time with the family than with non-family member friends we are stuck in the mud, on the wheel of Samsura going around and around. All organisms need what is known as 'new blood' in order to survive, expand and evolve. These types of people really do show little evidence of any real abilities outside of what their fantasy self and lives is.

As narcissism is a disorder of self-esteem we see that these people are very much lacking in real self-esteem and fabricate it by making a huge Self. This self becomes, self-interest, self-concern, self-love and all the self-words giving birth to pure self-centeredness. The only way to right all of this wrong within ourselves is to first admit that we have some kind of a problem, especially with self-esteem. Then we need to go within and do our own self-analysis to find out what created all of this. Once we have found the various sources we will then be able to re-write the tape in our head by forgiving those who helped us get into or who put us into this place and sincerely ask God to help so that we can focus our work on dissolving all the egos/sins that were created.

If we choose to ignore this pattern, then just as children are more food product sensitive today or needing 'Ritalin" to calm them down for school, so will we see more and more self-centeredness with the children. And it is happening, just ask any psychologist or teacher not afraid to speak up, or better still take a look around and think of your own children and those of others. If you are partly guilty to it all then don't be ambivalent, help fix it. You are part of the solution or part of the problem.

Sexual energy

Sex. What a word. It denotes for some the satisfaction of lustful desire. It is seen as the release of inner stress (as Freud mapped out) for many others, falling asleep right after release to the sadness of others. It is mostly the simple rutting and behavior patterns that we have made it into. And for just about all people it means 'I love you', conditionally of course.

Researchers know and have shown us how we all emit chemical smells that attract a mate, and now they are realizing that perfumes used by most alter that smell and thus give off an altered or false signal. This altered signal then masks the real fact of weather or not that the other person is for us. It falsifies their message to us. Oh well, life happens, Fate is our comptroller and so divorce and all the problems we live on our journey, happen. But even without all of this process going on we still manage to get into trouble.

How can we not even live what is our Fate to rebalance and why does that in and of itself create more and harder karma?

Pulling into the picture our learned behavior patterns and the various traumas or abuses of life, done by others to us and expanded upon by our own egos thereby hurting ourselves, we have a starting point that is not soulful, but egoic.

Remember Fate is given to us as our karmic process before birth and we either make it better or make it worst along our journey of life. We are sure that if you take a detailed inventory of your life from all points right now you will see what side you fall on. Detail of even the littlest situation contains insight as to what we hide inside, on purpose even if it is our egos doing the hiding. Unfortunately most people (north Americans at least) have a narcissistic disorder and that has been augmented by 'ambulatory schizophrenia' so that is why the sages say, 'that we do not know that we do not know, this or that about ourselves'. Giving you a hint to help out may make it easier. Listing the seven sins and being totally honest with yourself, to what degree are those egos still within you and how are you doing at dissolving them? Another hint is that 'lust' is the one buried the deepest and thus the last one to be totally dissolved.

So along our road, too often having been traveled before by others, over crowded now and into the foreseeable future, we have our relationships. That is to say we are looking for our sex-ships and how to dance that dance. The energy of sex, and it is an energy of creation by transformation, is the strongest one in the known cosmos, and propels us left and right until we find someone. Mixing in all the egos to this process (not to mention Fate watching over us all the time) we find ourselves, as all would agree, not looking for a sex partner but for a mate. What we all fail to seize in this is that we are fueled by the energy of sex, yet controlled by the egos/sins, which are under the vigilance of Fate. Fate does not do it for us, all it seeks is to make sure that we all rebalance anything that we unbalance. If we are still living on earth and not 100% conscious then we are under its' karmic influence and thus we are paying debts and in some cases collecting receipts. Yet the most interesting part of this process is that we do not know that we do not know that we are doing it. We lead ourselves into temptation by our egos and complete the wheel of Samsura (around and around) through our sexual energies.

Sex is not an evil thing, only evil people are evil. But working backwards we find the following to be true:

Evil people are narcissist as they lack real Love, they play God and they have no real emotions of their own. Narcissist people are self-interested (for some gain, usually some sort of power). The strongest power is sexual energy. So they seek for their self-interest (misuse) sexual energy and use it for their selfishness and make it evil. Not very complicated when we take an honest look at it and ourselves.

Look around at all the narcissism you can find and see, which is not to hard unless you are yourself and do not want to see it, that it is never happy with what it has attained, it needs to control all the things that surround it at all costs. It is the real perpetuator of evil. How? By using the sexual energies of those around them, from a simple big smile to a secretary (lust at work deep inside) to an out and out rutting session of power over their mate. But why? Because they have a weak or non-existent self-esteem carried over from a childhood when they did not completely go through what is known as the 'narcissistic stage' of development. The parenting, care giving that was done to them had flaws in it, and these were not corrected by others nor themselves as they grew up. Truthfully, they did not develop a healthy reverence for God, as they became God themselves.

They take the energy of sex and fuel/fool themselves into thinking that they are the strongest, they are the best, they can have and get whatever they want. They are egos playing a mind game against others at first and then eventually against themselves. They are usually emotionless towards others from the intimacy point of view and only know what the sex acts give them in all manners of satisfaction. They are not looking for a loving, heart filled relationship; they are just looking for sex. Just take a look at all the politicians through the ages and what they had been notorious for. Just as most relationships are turning out to be here and now, without the real Love that is already inside us all, waiting to wake up.

So along the road we go till we meet someone that gives us an unconscious signal that we can be together. If both are unconscious people then the mating dance starts and the weaker ego gives into the stronger one. The one with the most sins wins, just as in the 'boomers' bumper sticker, 'the one with the most toys (egos) wins'. Thus, off they go to start the process that they were taught, that was cemented into their sub-conscious, all over again which will then filter down to their own offspring and those of others.

They are fueled in the earlier days by the sexual energy and feelings of having conquered the world (actually only the egos of the other one) and end up rutting as in the animal kingdom until a child is born. Up to this point, the young couple has more likely than not been experiencing whatever they could in the realm of what they called 'love-making', but which is in reality discovering their sexuality. They just do, act, probe and find out what things are all about. Based upon their inner beliefs (which most likely was feed to them erroneously) they setup a pattern that will be the underlying manner for the rest of their relationship. I love you means lets have sex and having sex means I love you.

Men usually have the upper hand here, and as they are the stronger one, especially narcissistically, they do everything to control the situation around them, actively or passively. Women are still in most things, subservient to the man and thus have no control, other than the occasional no sex (no food, energy power) for the mate until he does this or that. He does do this or that for he wants the sexual energy, he wants his gratification so he can sleep better, feel better about himself and thereby strengthen his self-esteem. At this point, along comes a newborn child, the sexual energy changes for some women to a real breathe of a new chance at life, to make it all right. Things will always get better tomorrow, is the oldest egoic song within all of us. To others it means more responsibilities and thus less time for sex. To others, it is a new one to control and unconsciously tap into as a new sexual energy supply. And for a lot, it is a new way to avoid sex altogether as it has not turned out to be what they thought it would be.

Sex for most females, is the feeling of closeness, tenderness and caring. Just like the feeling that they have with a new born. For most males, it is the wanting of, acting in a manner, that will satisfy their lust, give them the energy power of and over the other and make them sleep better. The energy is all around both of them, yet it is not being used jointly and for a common good. Thus God is not in the picture for it has been said ' Any two people coming together with a common goal and with God in the picture will attain it'. They got the child but did not get each other. Somehow the energies were wrong at some point.

Remember, the mission inside yourself for your life, it was to do what and attain what? Without it we all are just adrift in the same sea of egos with the others. We have no real control over ourselves and thus we default to being controlled by others, which is our own egos to start with. As we have no control, we seek desperately to control the other. At this point the female is by now aware of being unhappy and starts to seek a way to fix the problem. She sets up the situations (consciously or not) which the male will find stressful unless he wakes up to her needs, but then he can also manipulate things and make her ideas back fire on her. She falls in love with her child, and this is pure unconditional love, perhaps not too conscious, yet aware of what it is and knowing that it is not sexual at all. She diverts her own sexual energy towards the child in a nurturing manner and thus there is less of it for the mate. He sees a decline in this energy and starts to force the issue more instead of working on his inner being and understanding what is happening. He feels cutoff from her as she loves the child, and he is still looking for sex and not transcending it all into real love.

As he starts to feel the decrease of the sexual energy within, he starts to become more stressed. She on the other hand, is saying that she is more stressed with the new responsibilities, which is because he is not helping her keep her energy level up with unconditional love consciously. He is just saying ' I lost something and want it back'. This then leads to arguments, strife and various manners of abuse. It could be he just takes her when he wants or it could start him foraging into the other pastures. The lack of sexual energy is affecting his brain and his actions. He is living as many say, from his pants and not his soul, and with this many laugh and say that is how men are. Yet what it is really doing is allowing narcissism to continue to expand and infect other people. Ambivalence is not an answer to this situation, as it only allows it to continue through our own avoidance and unconsciousness. If we all remembered that ignorance of the law, manmade or cosmic, is not an excuse, then this type of perpetuating would not continue.

Meanwhile there are other couples living similar situations so they get together, lament, and then decide if they want to give each other, some of that 'seemingly' missing energy or if they want to go out looking for some, somewhere else. Thus the wheel of Samsura keeps turning and turning and as the egos are being fed in steps Fate to do it its' job by making sure that what gets unbalanced is rebalanced. Without conscious love the sexual energy becomes heavy water in the body with nowhere to go. (This heavy water turns into sicknesses if not dealt with). So we seek an outlet of any kind. Without unconditional love the sexual energy becomes a control mechanism that one uses over the other, therefore there is no goodly-ness from within. So the female can now control the male with sex in order to get some form of intimacy. The male controls the female with projections that he may go elsewhere as there is an abundant number of 'fish in the sea'. Fear to fear. Oh well the egos are playing with themselves and no one is awake to 'mind the store'.

As the miss use of sexual energy continues to weaken the brain (by sending the egos on a rampage of sorts) and keeps the soul bottled up inside, more of the deeper problems start to surface as the cooping mechanisms become mixed up. These problems are the real life issues that need to be dealt with, yet the egos had not allowed them to be seen and worked on up to this point, as the being was not ready. As the ego is not being fed, as it wishes, it starts to weaken and gets angry with the truth being exposed in hateful manners. Had the same process of sex since meeting as a couple been kept up, one way or another, then these issues would not be known as the ego would not allow them to disturb its' control. So the sexual energy can be used to cover things up or to keep them buried.

The covering up is exactly what most people do when they have sex. They cover over the real feelings of what is buried inside by saying to each other; I will forget this or that as I have my desires fulfilled and my energy moved around. The only thing is that it is around in circles and up and down, with no mission purpose. As the womb cries each month for the unborn chance, could you imagine the population if birth control was not available. Where would all the sperm end up, how many more problems would we have and where would we live. One thing for sure we would end up draining all the energy of the cosmos to earth (in making the new born) and we would not have enough to support us all. Death and decay, just like the sperm and ovum.

So further along the road we go with a stop off at mid-life crisis. The male is not happy with his sexual life (or other repressed emotions he mostly denies) and seeks stimulation from where ever he can get it. His brain is still in a state of control by the ego and seeks only to re-charge the battery, by taking the stress away, not knowing really why it was there in the first place. He goes outside the couple for love, that is he seeks new and what he thinks are better but are just different manners of sex. The female handling all the things she can and getting more stressed by the in actions of the 'jerk' ends up re-evaluating her life up to that point. She is not happy, has not been happy since young adulthood. As the responsibilities grew so did her unhappiness. So she seeks outlets.

If either of them has unsatisfied egos they usually through in the towel, unless their egos under the watchful eye of Fate has other plans in the hardships and lessons to learn of life. The school of hard knocks is the slow manner of overcoming the egos. But, usually this just means giving control of our egos over to someone else, thinking and believing that they will make it all better. Sooner or later we wake up to the truth, which has a lot to do with becoming conscious as to who we are. One thing by then is that we realize that we are lazy and don't want to put in the effort as we are tired (mostly from too much rutting) as we still have not found real love to allow us to live in harmony with the cosmos.

The sexual energy at this point is just spinning around and out of control inside of us. It means that we have not been working with it, nor have we been working on the couple, for when we do, we find that the energy is transmuted into the unconditional love that it really is, and then we are capable of having a conscious truthful relationship. This is the time of life when we are apt to do the stupidest of things and in many cases regret it later. It could be divorcing when we should not have, or not divorcing when we should have. What a paradox.

Fate is at hand waiting for our action and we are further tempted by Fate through karma to meet people that we have through out our lives and really start to pay the debts that are due. We also have the chance to collect a lot of good things through out this process, if we are choosing to be conscious of our own sins/egos and ask for help while sincerely repenting. We need to realize why we are meeting so and so and doing what we are with them in our life at that point. Our energy then starts to really get mixed in with the energy of another, let's say the newcomer into the picture. At this point if we are not careful, meaning conscious, we can literally end up taking on some of the other person's karma. This is actually what pure conscious love does, take on another's' karma, but it is more often than not just our egos leading us into and succumbing to temptation. Transference of egos work from parents to offspring, just as it works between people. This new comer is the narcissist food that we need, and as the old food has gone stale we seek a fresh supply.

When we interact with them, they give us something new and thus something our ego is happy with as the game continues and it can play with some new friends, for a while at least. For as time goes on we start to discover that we are just repeating old patterns and bad habits and that we get stuck in the same rut of not being happy. We thought we could be happy if we changed the sexual energy. This is not to be as it is not the changing of the energy that is really needed, but the growth of our mind, the expansion of our inner being. Becoming conscious of who we are and how we tick inside. We walk away saying all the positive things to justify why we are breaking things off, yet we also know that we are filled with the negative stuff as to why we are in fact leaving. This negative energy doesn't just go away, and unfortunately unless understood it just interferes with our sexual energy.

When we are in this new relationship we have brought all of our baggage from previous relationships with us and thus we manage to sabotage the new comer and ourselves. If we do not get full control over this, we end up cutting off our narcissist food supply and have to start over, with the same mindset of egos, only more determined than ever to succeed. When our supply of food (sexual energy) is threatened we turn to all manners of finding a way to keep it or get it back. For narcissistically we say to ourselves, how can that person not love and want to feed US. WE are the best. WE are great. WE are whatever. Thus we are just seeking to feed the self-centeredness of our egos. Thus a sin is committed thanks to our egos and unless conscious of it we injure our soul, and as we usually do, delay the awakening some more.

As the ego works in wily ways we succumb to things that we never thought of as it seeks whatever manner to express. It makes us do things that would be horrible under any circumstance, but now it is situation of life or death of the ego. It is losing yet again a source of narcissistic food supply, it is panicking as to who will replace it and we are still devoid of God and Love that can easily help correct it all.

We never knew real love, so we have given up by now on ever being happy and just give into, accommodate our egos by being in a situation that is not were we really want to be. And so Fate sits there waiting for us to do something else, sending us some good situations and some trying ones, and we either jump in with both feet or we pull deeper into our shell and hide from it all. At this point, as in many times in our life we feel as if we are buried deep inside and there is some actor that is playing the image part that we project. There is, and the actor's name is Ego or any one of the sins that you care to be honest about.

We are still seeking a perfect relationship, yet the sad facts are that we cannot have a perfect or even a good relationship with another if we first do not have one with ourselves. If our egos control us, and if the other is controlled by their egos, then who is it that is having the relationship. The truth is inside each and everyone of us, if we care to see it consciously now. If not then we can rest assured that Fate will be waiting for us in our next life seeking to rebalance all that has to be.

Root/Genitals	MMM
Spinal Base	OU
Solar Plexus	AAA
Lungs Heart	OOO
Larynx	aaa
Third Eye	EEE
Pineal/Crown	I I I

BOOK TWO

GNOSIS: A HANDBOOK TO BEING ALL YOU CAN BE

Preface

Dedication

What is Gnosis?

Where are we from?

What are we doing here?

Where are we going?

Apology From Men to Women

Apology From Women to Men

Ask the Gods to work for you

Astral Travel

Conscious Love a divine godly relationship…

Control

Cutting your losses…karma is at work

Ego Busting

Energies, working with them

Evil, what is it?

Gnostic Movement

God-Sins/Egos and Bill Gates-Viruses are they the same…?

Healing old wounds…Yours or the couples

Intuition

Evil and Narcissism

How did we get to this point of evil, narcissism and lack of love?

It is a man’s world so no wonder 80% of it is narcissistic.

Women as receptive and sensual with Man as sexual, aggressive, and narcissistic.

Narcissism and its’ evolution via the family

Man & Woman United

Mars and Venus: when soul-mates find each other

Perfect Marriage

Reminders for the Advanced soul

Sexual energy

Soul Mates

Suffering

Tantric Sex and the Ancient Art of
Dissolving Egos as a Couple

Torment, Psychological

Truth or Consequences